Screw secrets and clues, I’ll just tell you! I just made the biggest move of my life. I packed my things into a tiny car and drove to Canada with my mother and sister holding my hand the entire way. Just to clarify, this has nothing to do with the election. (We know I voted blue.) I stayed long enough to vote, but Friday, November 7th at 3 am, we hit the road.
So guess what I had for breakfast?
And most importantly is who I had it with.
The truth is we spent seven years apart from each other and life is just too short to spend it apart anymore. We’re tired of waiting. We’re tired of laying in bed four hundred miles from each other feeling that dreaded ache. When it’s worth it, sometimes you have to take a leap. I believe in Tom and I believe in us. So much so that I was able to (though completely terrified) leave my family (which is more than just blood) to do this.
I feel like my body is alive again.
I can sleep at night.
There is no more ache.
This is it.
Hello, World.
I’ve had a big bang of the soul.
For those in my situation: Be brave. Never give up. Trust yourself. Life is too short to spend it worrying that you will fail or scared that you might make a mistake. Go. Go. Go.
48 Comments
fugitivepoet
15 Nov 2008 at 10:43 amI know exactly how you feel! I miss you!
<3-
Cizzle
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:27 pmI FUCKING MISS YOU CIZZLE!!
Bryan
14 Nov 2008 at 1:04 pmGo Sarah! I wish I had the courage to do something like that (not exactly like that, though, since I’m very happily married). Perhaps one day.
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:27 pmI’m pretty sure once a lifetime is good enough! I feel great now, but getting there was quite the challenge.
(Thanks for the support.)
kate__karohi
14 Nov 2008 at 5:46 amWOW! I could cry such happy tears for you! ♥
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:26 pmThank you, Kate!
Emma
13 Nov 2008 at 11:26 pmSara.
From the bottom, deepest (and most-connected-feeling) part of my heart:
I love, absolutely love you.
I think you’re amazing. I think you’re inspiring. I think the strange crossed paths of our similar lives make me somewhat teary more than just every now and then.
I am so, so, so, so ridiculously fucking proud of you. And hoped/wished/thought/guessed/predicted/prayed that this would be exactly what happened.
Call me crazy, call me a hippy, call me reading too much into things and believing in connections, but I absolutely asserted that this was the case.
I am just overwhelmed with happiness for you. And Tom. Say hi to Tom for me… I think we’d get along…
xx Em
(p.s I’ll email, and you can give me your kids’ Canada address – I’ll send a housewarming/Christmas gift xx)
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:26 pmYOU.
Do you see what I mean about us secretly being on the same page about everything?
Tom and I are in the middle of replying to your email- but in case you read this first-
Nerdy Skype action is A GO!
Emma
18 Nov 2008 at 10:43 pmAwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yay 🙂
So excited <3 <3 <3
Anna
13 Nov 2008 at 11:22 pmThere’s so much I want to say to you about this that I don’t want to leave bleeding-hearts style slashed across your blog.
I am proud of you, kiddo.
Sorry I missed you on Messenger. I want to send you a Christmas Card because I remember the one you sent me. I’ll hit you up on messenger again.
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:25 pmYou can leave your bleeding heart anywhere on my … err… blog. =D
(Thanks, dove.)
Chris
13 Nov 2008 at 9:19 pmgreat luck you two!!
i envy the leaping and straying!
please, write home.
and, if you desire some golden-white sandy afternoons…look me up.
i’m prepared to melt a few butter sticks to make a progressive soup.
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:24 pmBut of course!!
Bronwyn
13 Nov 2008 at 2:04 pmAww, I can’t add anything unique but you know how happy I am and how proud I am of you. <3
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:23 pmThanks, B =)
Dani
13 Nov 2008 at 1:22 pmHoly shit.
Those were the first words to my mind when I read this. Holy shit.
I’m SO happy for you Sara! You are SO brave! And you are also right, in that you only live once. I’ve been adopting that sentiment more and more since I’ve been with my fiance. Soul mates really can change your perspective on life, the world and yourself. The story of me and my fiance isn’t nearly as inspiring as yours, but I’d like to think the love aspect of it is. Love is universal, and once you have true love with the one just for you, nothing can stand in your way. The energy you feel when you are with them is just amazing. Even after 5 years of being with Kyle, I still get butterflies when I’m around him, and miss him every second that we’re apart. It makes me really happy to see other couples that are as happy as you and Tom. Congratulations, and I mean that with all of my heart.
Sara
18 Nov 2008 at 4:23 pmThanks so much, Dani. =)
It’s strange for me to think that I used to talk to him (and everyone) all the time in the chat. The people I knew online knew me better than anyone in real life.
And look what happened. We grew up and decided to be together.
The fact that you STILL get butterflies around Kyle is amazing. Tom and I are really fortunate to be together, I mean, fuck – we were kids together.
JP Morgan
13 Nov 2008 at 7:29 amCONGRATULATIONS!!! There’s nothing like being young and following your DREAM. Best of Luck.
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:53 pmThank you SO much! Dreams can come true. =)
Ri
13 Nov 2008 at 1:25 amUm…so you know I want that shirt, right?
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:52 pmCharolette Russe…. *ghost moan*
Chhahaaaarroolleetttee RUUUUSUSSSEEE.
=D
Abby Hartig
13 Nov 2008 at 1:08 amGood for you! 🙂
You are so brave, but I’m sure it will be worth it.
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:52 pmIt was definitely scary but also very exhilarating at the same time!
Joey Veedubs
13 Nov 2008 at 12:49 amIt was wonderful to get to see you again before you left. Though I think it made me miss seeing you more, already…! I suppose that’s never a bad effect to have on somebody.
I’m glad all went well on your trip up and that things are looking up for you; you sound really happy, and seeing this definitely made me smile, imagining how all this must be for you. Congratulations on finding your happy place, haha.
Here’s to the good mornings yet to come 🙂
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:50 pmIt’s always harder in the morning. =D
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:51 pmBut seriously, thank you. I really appreciate the warm fuzzies. How did your project end up going?
Joey Veedubs
18 Nov 2008 at 4:42 pmThe first part went pretty well. I’m giving the whole unit (with the sample you gave me) in two weeks, now. Thanks so much for helping…I love the piece you gave me 🙂
Victoria
13 Nov 2008 at 12:04 amoh my goodness, congratulations. you must be thrilled!
where abouts are you living?
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:50 pmI’m near Toronto, and you?
Victoria
18 Nov 2008 at 12:25 amsorry it took so long to respond… i live in the annex in downtown toronto!
how are you adjusting to your new canadian life??
Sarah
12 Nov 2008 at 7:22 pmI have been a lurker for some time but I just wanted to unlurk and say YAY and Congrats!!
I moved away from my family for love and it was the best decision I ever made! We have been married for 2 years and never happier!
I am happy that you have your other half and you don’t have to do the long distance thing any more!
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 9:25 pmThank you so much for the encouragement, Sarah. We share the same story and the same name! (Sorry if that’s cheesy, I really mean it.)
I’m confident I will be happier than I’ve ever been when I am with Tom as the three months we spent together were the closest feelings to heaven I have ever experienced.
(Thanks for unlurking to say hi!)
Michelle
12 Nov 2008 at 7:10 pmWow!!! That’s fantastic news Sara! I am so proud of you – and I’ll be thinking and praying for you that this all will work out, but I know it will because I can see how happy you both are.
I’m experiencing a weird, new kind of jelousy – 100% ecstatically happy for you but still hoping this happiness will happen to me. But I’m soooooo happy – that first breakfast must have been brilliant 😀 First of many
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 9:20 pmThank you so much, Michelle. Never stop looking and you’ll find it.
And yes, it’s the first breakfast of many, many more.
Jordan
12 Nov 2008 at 6:56 pmi think what you did is amazing and awesome! ive been subscribed to your blog for about 6 or so months now and im trying to be that brave of a person too 🙂 you are inspiration! by the way…i love your shirt, can you let me know where you got it?
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 9:19 pmThank you SO much, and absolutely!
I got it at Charlotte Russe!
Heather
12 Nov 2008 at 6:48 pmThat’s so exciting!! Good for you. 😀
Sara
13 Nov 2008 at 12:48 pmThanks, Heather. =)
ainsley
12 Nov 2008 at 6:47 pmoh my goodness, that is fantastic!! how exciting!!
and welcome to canada! 🙂
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 9:17 pmThere are so many bloggers I know in the surrounding area, we should have a blogging party!!
Cri
12 Nov 2008 at 5:34 pmyes yes yes!!
i did exactly this a year and a half ago!
i packed my shit and moved to toronto.
im really really excited for you!
like, really really! 😀
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 6:28 pmYAAAAAY!!!
GO LOVE!
Catherine
12 Nov 2008 at 5:07 pmSara, I’m so happy for you. I’m certain you made the right decision, and it’s wonderful that your family has supported you through this.
Just out of curiosity, how long is the drive from where your family lives?
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 6:27 pmIt’s about a seven hour drive, so not too long. But it’s the farthest I’ve ever been. And it’s across the border, so it makes visiting a bitch.
We realized when Tom wanted to come and visit me and the gentlemen at the border gave him a really hard time that it was going to be very difficult to see each other- especially when we can’t work in each other’s respective countries. (Something Obama is looking to change!!)
Thanks for the support, I’m confident in my choice. Though I won’t lie, it’s still scary to think about sometimes. But overall I’m excited.
Diana
12 Nov 2008 at 4:45 pmOmg, Sara, I’m so happy for you! 🙂
You’re really brave and I’m glad you had the courage to do that.. Amazing.
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 4:48 pmThank you!! *HUGGLES*
I feel so good about it.
Diana
12 Nov 2008 at 4:56 pmI don’t think I could do that.. really.
Can I send you an email? To what email can I send it?
Sara
12 Nov 2008 at 6:22 pmOf course you may!!
(I emailed you my address.)