Simply Stardust

I’ve decided to launch this new blog today, on the day of my name change, because it seems the most appropriate in more ways than one. I don’t feel like I am “Chasing Twilight” anymore, or that I am chasing anything, in fact. I feel that I have at last found what I have always been searching for.

A comment was left on my last.fm account today. It was something to the extent of, “Why the new account? A musical big bang?”

And I was stunned when I realized that it was indeed true, though it wasn’t a musical big bang, but a personal one. I feel like my insides were just holding so much that I exploded and created a new internal universe to explore and decipher.

Tom and I have been spending time stargazing on my roof, hiking and walking, watching movies, devouring pie and pretzels, and discussing things that matter. And we now have matching rings. BFF? (Lame, corny, but true.)

I can’t begin to explain to you how simply ridiculous it’s been having him around. I’ve known him, sometimes better than he’s known himself, for seven years. And he’s known me. We met on the internet and poured our souls out to each other, thinking we were safe at a distance. I mean, we both thought, as kids do, how threatening can it be to tell a stranger your deepest and darkest secrets? Especially if you have no idea where they are or if you’ll ever meet? Well seven years of that connection, and finally he’s here. And sometimes I just look over at him and go, oh my word, we were kids together. When I got picked on at school he knew about it. When I was terrified of growing up he knew. He was there for ____, and _____, and _____. And now I’m watching him put cream cheese on his bagel.

My reality has been turned upside down.

It seems only natural that I would choose this metamorphosis in my reality as a new starting point. A new name, a new blog, a new life, and a new story.

And so today I celebrate my “rebirthday”, as well as the birth of this blog. Thank you for coming. Thank you to those that followed me from my previous blog and thank you to everyone who is new. I hope you enjoy having me as much as I enjoy having you.